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Monday, July 29, 2013

Plan B?

This has been the busiest summer of my whole life. And I welcome it. I have loved every minute of it.
The laughs, the tears, the intensity, the drunken times, heartbreak and aches,
the scary times.. the unforgettable.

Ive missed writing too much. I feel like life is a tread mill that is on the highest speed and it rarely ever slows down. And for this, I will get it all caught up now with blogging! Well, its been a long time since I last wrote. I am a little surprised that I waited this long.. What have all of you lovelies been up to this whole time?

One thing is for sure. A lot of the stuff that happened this summer was not very "planned". Except the weddings I was so happy to attend.

I don't know where I am headed for the first time in so long.
My life adventure is decided on just enjoying life. Regardless what I am doing. Of course I will always set goals for myself,  but not so much that I am fixated purely on the results.
This life is a ride to which I strapped into and I am glad for the twists and turns, because at least I do not get bored! Actually I do. Which is one reason why I tend to switch things up as often as I do.

If you havent seen..I dyed my hair this summer. Its pretty dark and I'm already ready for something new again! Go figure!

I went from this...

to this..


to this..!

WOAH NELLY! and thank goodness it faded but at first it was like POW!

 Here are some pics of Jesse + Sarahs wedding. YAY!


Pics of Rob + Megans Wedding! YAY


Jessie and Josh's Wedding! YAY!


Congrats to you all.. I love you guys!

I have to say that even though I am not even close to getting married, or having kids. I am still so happy to be apart of these events in my friends lives and celebrate with them. They are such wonderful people and they all deserve to be happy. I cant wait for the memories to be made with all of them in their new paths.

For me, I am currently working on..
Plan B..
No, not that type of plan B! I mean I'm the type of person who is now on a plan B (IN LIFE!) I thought I had it all figured out. And once I did that, it all came out from underneath me. Things aren't always what they seem.

.. Maybe I should say “path B”
Either way, I feel like there are times in my life when I run down a really really long winding path and I have just given it my ALL.. Just literally catching my breath and finally feeling like I will finally feel the sigh of relief. But instead, when I am dry and low on energy.. and my body feels as if I have finally met victory, I learn that I have just been elected to began a whole new race. WHAT?!

And really, when I get to the end, it turns out to be a dead end. I'm not sure why Ive seen this as “failure in the path”. It is meant to be this way though. These are my learning spurts.
I went to school and earned a degree. That degree is still not being put to use. The worst part is that I criticize myself for not knowing where I am at in life. Sometimes its little things, like seeing where other people are and comparing my journey to theirs. So many people already have kids, a house, a spouse.. And here I am.. just still working on myself. Who is to say that is wrong though?

"How long has it been since someone touched part of you other than your body?"

I can say that this summer, I finally have gained a sense of independence on another level. I am lucky for this self discovery.

OH! and a big shout out to my friend Hannah. She is too awesome not to recognize. She has such a beautiful heart. She can listen to me when I desperately just need to hash shit out. I am so seriously lucky to have a friend who is here for me whenever, however and as much as she can give in that moment. Even if its just a few brief words to cheer me up. Hannah, you're the beezneez dude. I love you! This past year and a half, we have bonded so much. I now know that you'll definitely be a FOREVER friend and always make it to the next chapter in my life. We have a Vegas trip planned this October and I couldn't be happier that I will be experiencing this adult playground with you and our group <3


What else can I say? I thought I wanted to go into the beauty field. I cant touch people all day but I love helping people so I will continue to flourish somewhere in ANY job that allows me to do so. The nice part is, I can change my mind whenever I want. The day always starts out fresh and you can make a new path if you change your mind. Now, all I have to worry about is making some good dough, being happy and healthy... I assume the rest will follow and I will stop putting my energy into things that don't allow me to grow as a person.

Will check in sooner than later on this

X to the O. 
Blogger out.

Monday, February 18, 2013

Long Lost Bloggerina

HELLO SUNSHINE! Hello all! I am sad for how long its been.

 I have to reach out and tell my friends that they are some of the most special people in my life. Every time someone sends me a comment or even sends me some love through a text letting me know that they enjoyed my blog... it makes me smile. I appreciate all of you that have thoughts back to me :) I feel uplifted just to jog my mind on here. But its even better when I know I have some listeners as well.

This blog has been sitting in my box to be published for a while.. and I just couldnt press that little orange button until I thought it was good enough. "Sometimes I’m terrified of my heart; of it’s constant hunger for whatever it is it wants. The way it stops and starts."  Regardless of all that.... I welcome the world into my life and hope to see that you enjoy the random ramblings and my photos.

Lately, I feel the need to ask myself.... What are you passionate about?

I found myself saying something pretty ridiculous a while back.

 I said "This song could just lift me right up into the air....."  The one thing I'm passionate about every time, is music. I love it more than a lot of things in this world. I truly wonder what would I do if money were no object.

Here is some true musical talent:

  Another thing I love is comedy. I love to laugh. One way to incorporate this into my life is to not take things as seriously as I do. Sometimes, life just gets so hard that you have to laugh at it.

So, here we have 2 "things" I really enjoy.  Comedy and music. Those are NOT solid objects in life. I lust for things in life that cannot be touched... These things can only be heard and felt. Laughter cannot be bought. A good voice cannot be bought. There's a lot of appreciation in that. We all have our own gifts and talents. What is my talent to be shared?

My life is always in need of constant change!
Here I am, 2 weeks away from my tattoo date and I just want it to speed up a little. I dont understand why but we tend to rush our little lives along...

This kitty looks a lot like Bliss as a kitten! So cute


 This is Bliss now! Shes getting so big. She is going to have to get groomed like a lion cut haircut... She has matted hair behind her legs unfortunately. I do brush her as much as I can now since I didn't realize how easily it mats. This will probably cost between 75 and 100 dollars to get done. Oh wells! Shes my kid until I have a kid. I'll take care of what needs to be done.

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

For the love of Inspiration: Thinking of Inking & Sharing my Piercings

It is always such a pleasure to write. I have finally conjured enough thoughts to make it a complete blog. I am inspired.

It seems to me, as the weather gets nicer... people get nicer. It is definitely a mood lift to feel the warmth on your skin again. I definitely am excited for summer, even though I know I will be busy working and possibly going back to school... I need to get to the pool more this year and just soak up the rays.

How do you feel about people pitching a product to you?

 Sometimes it happens without your permission. This week, these two sales women came into my work and tried to sell me some mineral make up and a hair straightener. I felt exremely pressured because I COULDN'T get away from them. It was at my work... 

 Who comes into a small business to sell something? You don't see that too often.

Long story short.. I didnt buy what they were selling.  Sometimes I have a hard time saying no though. I thought about it and I already have some amazing products at home. This inspired me to share to you guys what mine are and why I probably wont change. Some of these things I have been using for YEARS! I don't want to buy new things that I'm unsure of.

My favorite beauty items I use daily:


Face Moisturizer

What keeps me smooth and smelling yummy.


I am considering to buy
-hair fertilizer ($6)- organic root stimulator
-hair, skin and nails - ($6) Spring Valley
-coconut oil ($5-$10)for many uses. Hair and skin. You can also cook with it.

I have decided that I still don't like any of the dry shampoos I have tried. They just make me feel even more yucky about my hair not being washed. I have found that it works best for me to just rinse my hair on the "off" day and that makes it look and feel better. The problem is... We don't always have time for that. Most mornings I am in a time crunch since I pushed the snooze button one time too many.

I have found a new love with dying my hair. Thanks to my friend Megan, she has shown me the light to a new me. Its definitely fun but there is a lot of upkeep to it. My mom says its safe to dye it every six weeks. I may try every 8-10 weeks if I can get away with it. The darker color I have on now is shexy. I love the look of a darker color for the winter months.
I wish I had the balls to go platinum blonde but I am afraid I will be washed out. I should try on a wig to see how weird it would be! Anyone know of any wig shops? Haha lets go try on some wigs to see how we feel about different styles and colors.

This is random. but something to try if you haven't.. Tide Pods.

 These make your clothes smell sooo good. The only problem is that they are pricey!


All of a sudden, I am into protein. Protein bars, protein shakes.. checking to see the amount of protein on food labels. It is the one and only thing that makes me feel like I am full enough to be productive for hours on end.

Chris makes these thick protein smoothies everyday. We desperately need a new blender that is easy to use! We got a magic bullet blender from my grandma when we moved in 3 years ago and It is starting to die on us since we use it so much! I want one that includes the tumbler that you take with you.

 These are so good. Try them! 15g of protein

My plan/Origination of my tattoo idea:

I have been considering a tattoo for the past few years. One day it just came to me. A dream catcher. They have always meant a lot to me and I have received them as a  child from both my mom and from my dad. The gift was always very special to me.

The dream catcher concept is that all of the good dreams stay with you on the web of the dream and continue to flow through.. while the bad ones are caught and they never come back. It only catches the good. The feathers are symbolic of breath and air. Breath is essential of life. That is what I hope to live my life by. Hold onto the beauty and the happy dreams. Your success, your love, your dreams.. 

I have had these for years and years.

 I have always loved piercings. I have thought about tattoos and have waited it out.

 I am in the process of carefully choosing an artist.
 I hope to make this happen by my birthday. But there should be no rush, if I don't find the perfect artist by then.

The History of my piercings :

My first piercing was my earlobes of course.  I think I was maybe in 4th grade when I got that done at Claires. I think I was maybe 10 years old ..

I got my belly button pierced when  I was 13 years old, at a shop called CDS in aurora. This was the most nerve wracking but I absolutely still love my belly button ring.

 I got my cartilage pierced, and a 2nd hole for the earlobes at Piercing Pagoda kiosk. One did not get done at the correct angle so it healed weird. I do not wear the 2nd row anymore. I got that when I was about 15.  

During the cartilage piercing, it felt similar to a hot frying pan being held against my ear. The healing process tends to be pretty easy as long as you follow the directions exactly the way they told you care for it. I have been happy to not have any rejections or infections of any kind.

  When I was 19, I decided to get my tongue pierced. I got it done at Bonaroo Tattoo in Aurora. Only because I could. It was a very strange healing process. Since the tongue is always wet.. the healing process is long. The tongue cannot scab over. I had a decent amount of swelling. It healed up very nicely and I liked it for a long time. Chris wasnt a fan of people seeing my tongue ring because some people are dirtballs. But he didnt mind it there, or not. I had it in for maybe a year. I check that off my bucket list.

 In the end, I removed my tongue ring so I could engage in eating sushi more often without it being bothered. (and also spaghetti...)

 Heres a few pics of the piercings:


I know that tattoos and piercings are different ball games but I figure if im brave enough to do those things, I can probably go and get a tattoo (as far as the pain part goes)

Every now and then I miss my tongue ring but then I think about how I like to eat lots of different food and I dont like it being in the way of that :)

Anywho! I hope to update more often than I have been. I love you all and thank you for your support.