Whats going on Wednesday

Where to start!!

Welcome back. Or if you're new to my blog.. Yay! I'm glad you're here.

Let’s just say, Life is busy.

This has been the most amazing summer. I have been so fortunate to be able to take this leap of faith. I am going to start light and go into the deeper stuff later.

Obsessions that aren’t seeming to go away:

SHELLAC

  Those are MY nails "ooooooooh!"

  Its been crazy to have long nails for once in my life. They have never been able to grow without splitting, or breaking somehow. Truly a miracle product. I miss being able to go get shellac done with one of my girlfriends.
 I was going consistently every 2 weeks but now

 I am trying to slow down until I get into another income.

GREEK YOGURT

I cannot get enough of Greek yogurt. So many people hate it and say its too thick. I feel full when I eat it, and it has lots of protein! So now I'm trying all these different brands and flavors. I thought Chobani was the best, but so far its actually Fage. And now I'm trying Yoplaits version take on Greek yogurt.

 The only problem with it, is its all expensive.. No matter what brand. Anything with a good source of protein isn't cheap.

 

READING

I have been reading, which for me is a HUUUGE feat. I am one of those people who likes to read CONVENIENT short stories, magazines, articles or blogs. I have dedicated myself to learning some new things though. And that takes some commitment. 

So for that alone, I am proud of myself.

This is my summer reading list, which I would highly recommend to anyone looking to improve their relationships and lives:

 "The Five Love Languages"

I started off with this book, recommended to me by my mom who has learned a thing or two about relationships. This book has shown me that not everyone is going to show you love the same way that you receive it. They may be loving you in another way that you haven't been receiving well. Its very important to know which language your lover speaks.

"The Power of Now"

I started reading this book after talking with Holly, a friend and sister-like influence in my life. She just so happens to be Chris’s sister in law. :)

This is a doozer. WHEW! I mean, I couldn't put it down because It is fascinating to me that someone has strung together a beautiful way to teach me what I have been missing out on in life. Where have I been?!

 

 Don't Sweat the Small Stuff

I remember having this book as a teenager, and going through it, but NOW it TRULY speaks to me. Although the title says “for teens” it could have been for anyone, really.

 This book makes you see life through a different light. Its very small and easy to read with the chapters being only a few pages at a time. It makes sense to me that I freak out over too many small things and I am wasting my energy on things I shouldn't. Settle down there! Get out of the "emergency lane".

 FLORIDA VACATION

My trip to Florida was very nice. I wish I could get away like that more often.

Maybe the trick is to have a job that allows you to travel to different areas all the time.

 

 

Can I switch my vision to be like this every now and then? lol 

Little Bliss got spayed

Although it is an entertaining idea to breed Bliss and have little copies of her, we signed a contract with the breeder that says she is purely a pet and now she wont have any troubles with being in heat and being a crazy hyper thing. She is still recovering and the vet advised to keep her E-collar on for a total of two weeks. Poor thing, she keeps trying to jump onto things and falling down because she cant fit into small spaces as easily anymore with that thing on her head. I cant wait to take it off.

CRAFTS

I went to my parents house and my mom had a surprise for me. 

She pulled out a project from forever ago. 

Its from when I was 9 years old. Its a huuuuge doll house that is being made with tiny pieces of wood, carpet and wall paper. Its like building a house from scrap, just a smaller version of it. 

I was amazed and overwhelmed by how much is left of it. I didn't get pictures of the flooring and "work in progress" but I got some of the cute little furniture for it though. I wonder how long it will take to get it put together!

 What else is going on?

Well.. I guess we will get to the heavy stuff.

FAMILY

My dad just went through a very big surgery. Life changing. Infact, something that we take for granted everyday is being able to use the bathroom comfortably everyday, whenever we want.

 After all the cancer/chemo/radiation he went through, Then he went and had the surgery to get the colostomy done. I have seen him in the hospital and the team is just waiting for his stomach/bowels to cooperate with the system. He has been quite uncomfortable and It has been hard on all of us.. wondering what they will do next. He hasn't eaten in over a week and a half now and he feels weak. Please pray for him, or send him positive energy. I want him to get his life back to normal. I cannot stand to think that something else would happen to him. He remains hopeful and knows how much he is loved. The surgery took 6 and a half hours and I am hoping he wont need any further operations.

It makes me realize how life can change in a matter of minutes. You never know when certain gifts or things we take for granted will be gone.

 I have been open to new things more than ever now. I notice I haven't been up to saying YES to trying new things as much. I want to change that. I am ready for new things. I'll never know if I don't try. Its so strange how I got into this rut... such a secure life felt nice there for a little while. But it gets dull.

Thanks for stopping by. Just an update of the current.

If we are born free.... Let's stay that way.

Since I am not sure exactly what I want to say in this blog, I will just leave it to quotes and photos.  

"Compassion hurts. When you feel connected to everything, you also feel responsible for everything. And you cannot turn away. Your destiny is bound with the destinies of others. You must either learn to carry the Universe or be crushed by it. You must grow strong enough to love the world, yet empty enough to sit down at the same table with its worst horrors."

"Life becomes easier when you learn to accept an apology you never got."

"The only journey is the journey within."

"The happiness of your life depends upon the quality of your thoughts; therefore guard accordingly."

"Every day do something that will inch you closer to a better tomorrow." 

"There is more to life than increasing its speed."
 

"Our minds are as different as our faces: we are all traveling to one destination; --happiness; but few are going by the same road."

 

Thanks for stopping by.. A real blog with true & legit updates, coming soon.

Learning Experiences!

I don't express much of the bad on my blog, which I feel like.. 

I like to be positive, but I also want to be real with you guys. 

My life is certainly not perfect.So I decided to tell you some of the mishaps Ive had lately.

The silly mistakes/back luck I’ve had lately:

•  Learning Lesson #1 - Mayhem with Bliss in Denver.

 I wanted to get affordable vet care for my little Bliss, So I chose a place in Denver. 


I was trying to get three services that day: Spay, Microchip and Rabies Vaccine.

I called and set up my kitten for this on a Wednesday. I needed to get her dropped off between 7:30 and 8:30. At 8:15 I was moments away from pulling up to the clinic (or so I thought). This was in downtown Denver and there was some construction going on and a whole lot of traffic!! 

I had my GPS all set up and it kept saying "recalculating" ..."recalculating"

I called and asked for directions.. tried to memorize it. I hung up and still couldn't remember each and every detail. I went down the same streets like crazy. I kept "flipping a bitch" and turning around time and time again. 

Finally I was sort of freaking out because I knew I'd be late. I thought about heading back to the highway and then thought.. come on, I CAN DO THIS!!

All the while my little kitten is whining and probably thinking "what the heck! we have been in the car forever!! Where are we going?!"

So then I called the clinic once again, while I am parked and had this woman guide me  with directions until I finally got there. I arrived at 9 or so. Guess what? Luckily, they still decided they would take me in even though I was late.Then I'm filling out paperwork. Lots of it too.. I get about halfway through and It clearly states you cannot have them getting spayed if they haven't eaten for at least 8 consecutive hours.  

 I totally forgot about this. Its funny because I have had many surgeries and know for a fact you have to fast before surgery. It risks a lot during the process. My previous doctors/surgeons would most certainly remind me of this detail....aaaaand guess what? no one from the clinic reminded me or even told me to begin with when I SET UP the appointment. My little kitty may or may have not eaten, but its not worth the risk.

 So as it turns out.. I started bawling my eyes out. In front of everyone. Took my kitten back to the car.. freaked out a little more and called the two people who help me the most in life. Chris, and my mom. Chris told me it would all be okay, and that we all make mistakes, and he suggested to just get her rabies shot done. So then went back inside and asked the clinic if she could get her still get her rabies shot, so it wouldn't be as much of a waste of time..

The front desk lady said no, because she would have to be under anesthesia??? Without hesitation I peaced out pretty fast. I was so embarrassed. I went home and I did some research.

I'm glad that I didn't have any services done that day. I read that a cat shouldn't be under anesthesia while being vaccinated. Here's what is says. "This makes their immune system have to do two things at once, get better from their illness or clear anesthesia and build immunity from the vaccine. It also can lead to a vaccine failure if their immune system can not mount a proper immune response against the vaccine because it is busy with other things. It is better to make a second visit in to the vet for the vaccine when your animal is well."

 Anyway, now I've realized I need to act more like a parent to this kitten. What I learned from this is to research everything a little more before setting up appointments. Shop prices, look at reviews and also make a check list so nothing gets skipped over.

•  Learning Lesson #2 - Parking Ticket

I recently received a parking ticket. In Chris's Car. Why? because I paid for parking, at the machine, took the receipt that came out and placed it on the dash.

You're probably wondering what I did wrong then huh? I thought the same thing myself when we received the parking notice.

 I didn't even GLANCE down to AT THE RECEIPT to see that it took my information down correctly. We went to the Colorado Symphony event and then came back and had this fun stuff on the dash. 

We got a ticket for parking in space #11, because the receipt says #6.

FAILING to even look to see if it were the correct receipt would have cost $75 (if I didn't get it appealed). Actually $85 because it was $10 to park there.   Luckily I got it taken care of.. But, really...taking my time a little more on that would have been good. Next time, I will glance down at the ticket and be sure that its mine, and if its not then I would try and call the lot supervision to let them know. Luckily my bank statement was ultimate proof.

 Here I am with the Symphony Tickets. It turned out pretty cool but... the parking ticket put a damper on the night.

•  Learning Experience #3  Even if you trust people to not make mistakes, you may have to go behind them and double check.

I recently got another policy for insurance. It was suppose to cost $10.41.

Instead, someone accidentally added another 0 into that equation and withdrew from my account this amount: $1,041.00

When you are doing transactions over the phone.. Make sure that person does the transaction with you ON THE LINE, and check your bank account as soon as possible to make sure the person on the other end ran the transaction correctly. If I didn't check this and verify, I could have been in DEEP CA-CA !! Their mistake could and does cost YOU. The sooner these type of errors are noticed, the sooner they can get resolved.

Learning experiences accepted. 

Tell me about some of your mishaps/learning experiences in the comments section below. ;) 


If you have had a bad day like that .... Here's from me to you:

Searching for Myself

I am searching for myself..

It is so weird to be at this stage in my life. I am in my 20’s. I am no longer that same high school girl who was the new girl, little skater chick, whats-his-names-girlfriend, or the girl who doesn't have a group or "label".

She likes art, music and simple beauty. She’s critical, but she’s growing. She wants the balance between being hard and being soft. 

That's how I would describe my high school self, or college self in third person. 
Some of it has changed... Not a lot though.

There is a freedom to choose what we want to do in life but there’s no longer a road map with choices presented to us in the same way it was before.  If you were in middle school, you would go on to High School. If you’re enrolled in Algebra 1, you take the next class… Algebra 2, or whatever comes next. You move onto the next thing that is required of you. Once you move on from high school, it’s your choice.

  Go to work OR  pick a college and attend classes again. 

Easy enough? ..Right? ugh..








I went to college. I got my degree. Now whaaaat

What was your identity then and what is it now?

I realize now more than ever that feeling like you don’t have a purpose is very hard. I haven’t “selected” my lifelong goal. Should I just make a bucket list? and then earn my money however it comes? Is it more important to DO something in life? or to BE something in life? I still am researching and going into the “fitting room” with each job/lifestyle and trying it on for size.

I know I have a reason to be here. But what is my calling? And how do I go about attaining it? I know in my work I need to help people.

Lately, I’m having an attack of..reality!

I have to read the directions. I have to be more prepared. If I slack, then I pay for it. All of my mishaps can only be trailed back to me now.. Because I made a decision.

Whew! Sometimes I forget that we are not in as much control as we think. Even if you have everything planned out from A to Z. There still will be some random stuff thrown at you. Shit happens.

Want to know some stupid things that I’ve done recently that cost me time/money? 

HAHA! Never mind I won’t waste your time with that.

I don’t like rules. That’s why I am so bad with them. 

REAL TALK

 Whatever I do is going to take WORK. I don’t know why this is so hard for me to accept. Has anyone had struggles with this? 

Am I the person I want to be?  Sure, I could work on being more prepared and actually following more directions. Sometimes inside I want to cry out like a two year old does. And I do. That's whats embarrassing. Crying is a huge outlet for me when I get frustrated. That is something I’m working on. 

What I’ve come to decide is… The best thing to do is just to go for what makes you happy at the time. What makes you happy may change. Accept that.

I thought I was happy earning a decent wage, but hating what my actual tasks were, day in and day out.  So now I’m changing it. It’s a journey.

This may sound like an oxymoron but my GOAL is to WORK ON NOT BEING SO HARD ON MYSELF.

You’re too hard on yourself.

Be light.

Be balanced.

Don’t keep track of your silly mistakes. 

Learn from them and know that you’re doing what you can.

Life is not like the movies. That’s it.

What are you hard on yourself about?

Laziness?

Making mistakes?

Your body?

We all have these things..

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 Dear Colorado,
You have been through more than enough this year.
Please have a smooth rest of the year. Please stay strong.
My heart breaks for so many people right now through the tragedy that happened.


I had a hard time sleeping last night because I kept imagining how it must have been for those people. And knowing that he is locked up close to where I live creeps me out a bit. Either way, justice will be served. People have reached out so much and extended their love during this time. Each one of us mourns that this type of thing happens to innocent people. Huge hugs to Colorado. This community cares for each other.

Project: Happy

- Letting go and laughing more

-Self meditation and being mindful of my thoughts
- Being more fluid with my thoughts and energy.
-Knowing that I can battle my anxiety. It doesn't have the power. I do.

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